an abrupt ending

after almost exactly a month, he ended things. just like that. a month isn't long in the grand scheme of things. it isn't a long time. but that's not really what i'm measuring.

I have no idea how I got here....it's 2:43 am in the morning and i just feel like i've been shit on. seriously...my heart put in a vice and just squeezed...and i wish i had some words of wisdom from this and i wish that i could at least hear from God and i wish my roommate weren't gone for the weekend...

and i wish i could get back to sleep.