i wish i could tell you

i wish i could tell you that your eyes looked so blue today
with that blue checked shirt and that blue-blue hat
and you still look handsome even without your beard
(you know my weakness for beards)
because now your eyes look even clearer and kinder
and you look younger and tanner than ever

i wish i could tell you that i think of you all the time
i go to sleep at night with thoughts of your tender hands
and i wake up wishing you were beside me

wishing i could bury my nose in your shoulder
and breathe in its shirt-laundry scent
and let you hold me in your strong arms
and do nothing else
don't kiss me just hold me and tell me i'm not alone
and that whatever is between us can be worked out
and that in your arms is a safe place to be

is this an addiction or do i really care for you
if i really care for you is that enough to ask you to come back
if i really cared for you would i just let you go and find
whatever you need without me
if i really care i would place you gently into God's palm to hold awhile
instead of seeking your attention and your glance
and snatching you away from our True Love's hands

you said i think it's gonna be hard not to touch this skin
but now you look away and i try to keep your baby blues on mine
but you and i know that it's better this way
and so you finish your work and leave before we say or do something
we will regret or before either can get too sad
before we can grasp the fact
that what we thought we had is a thin line of vapor holding us
together

and keeping us apart